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Well it's very nearly official... I'm gonna graduate early... My parents know, and some of my friends know that i wanna try. My mom and I are gonna talk to my councilor, get a highschool release form signed so that i can take cabrillo classes... And i gotta take English for sures... And stuff... And graduate 1 year earlier... A lot of people have said this, or something similar, to me: "Why? That's stupid. Don't do it. You lose out on a lot." And believe me, i've looked into it. I know i won't get benefits of the senior year like Senior pics, grad nite, panoramic pic, and i won't be able to walk. I know, i know. But here's the thing: I don't like pictures (and would hate the pics of senior year Senior pics especially since everyone wants one.. and i hate other people having pics of me) and i know grad nite is supposed to be really fun and everything... But it doesn't seem like i'd really enjoy it. Maybe i would, but as long as i dont know it, it doesn't make me want it. And the biggest thing: I wont be able to walk. Guess what? I dont really care. What do you do? Spend money on a cap and gown to have two seconds of glory as they call (and mispronouce most likely) your name so you can walk up and get pictures taken of you? No thank you. As for my reasons to do it... I have many. Here i go... First, i'm not really close with my class (the sophmore class) and all of my closer friends are older and will graduate before me... This is my attempt at getting to be with them. And here's my biggest reason. Sean. He's my best friend and i'm one of the reasons he stayed behind, and he's one of the reasons i'm going ahead. you see, i dont want to lose him, and i dont want to lose him to college. We're planning on attending the same college (by chance) and if we graduate together, we will hopefully go to college together. And without the year in between, we wont drift apart. I know this sounds like a stupid reason, but it's what i want. it's what he wants. No, there's no relationship between us... Only a strong friendship.Other reasons include me being over highschool-drama, me being over highschool in general. I have good grades already and am satisfying requirements. I know where i want to go, and what i want to major in. Why shouldnt i? So that's all, i'll ttyl later!!!!

GRAH!!! Why was my day so sucky!? grrr!! Alright, those of you who know me know it would take helluva lot to get me super mad at someone, and almost impossible for me to dislike someone enough to be willing to slap them full on, right? Well, guess what? That's right, i'm really pissed at someone and want to smack her across the cheek a couple times!! So, this girl, who shall remain nameless, is talking completely unfounded, untrue, and overreactive (and she knows this all too) shit about my best friend. I mean, i know this friend will back me up if i needed him, and he knows i'd back him up if he needed me, and right now, he may not need me, but i'm behind him all the way. If i hear her talk about him like that ever, i will stop what i'm doing, walk up to her, and tell her off. i dont care who i'm with, who she's with, who'd hate me for saying what i'd say, or anything like that. Now, this friend of mine, i love him to death, and i know what kind of person he is. So what makes her think she can summarize all that he is into a few negative words? i mean, he's so much more than anything that can be said in a few seconds, but what she said was completely untrue and uncalled for. GAH! i hate people like her! I pride myself on being a pretty good judge of character, and i must say that what i feel about someone either as i meet them or before i meet them usually will tell me how i'll feel about them later on, and more than likely it's true. And let me just say this: when i met my friend, he gave me the impression of a really good fun person.
I do however, feel that no one would care if i said that my first impression of this girl is NOT nice. yeah have alex bice go. haha

Alright, i'm outiez. laters.

Well, I'm sooo tired, but i cant sleep because i have stuff i have to do! grrr.... Dude, well, i haven't talked to my bestest friend in a couple days, but i've talked to my other best friend a lot in the past few days... Today was opening night for the play and i'm tired. it seemed like there wasnt much crew there or something, cuz i had to do a lot more work then i normally had to do. Fuck. And am i popular? Cuz i swears that people were yelling my name as i went to go get stuff and be crewy. haha. Naaaw, couldn't be! hehe well, on top of that, i have much i have to do. I'm at school from 7:30am-10:00pm as are many other play people, merely cuz i dont have a ride to and from the school and my house... I just had a nice talk with sean and i figured out i give crappy advice. why do people come to me for advice? I think i pretty much told sean what he already knew. haha but yeah, it's cool, i mighta made him think a bit. but it's not just him, i give pretty crappy advice to everybody. dammit! what if i told someone to do something and they do it and it gets them killed or something!? aaahhhh i think i'm gonna stop giving advice. because a lot of times people come to me even when they already know what they wanna do, and i'm just supposed to confirm it....? Well, i can sleep now so that's what i'm gonna do and i'll write more later.

GO WHS DRAMA!!! Alice in Wonderland = AWESOME!!!!

Alright, until now i've only had a myspace, so this is something new to me... I think it'll be fun, because i won't post all my piss and moans shit on my blogs on myspace!
Well, tomorrow's halloween. i wonder what every one is gonna dress up as... I'm just a gothy punky person thingie.... Oh! last night was fun. Mike had a halloween party. Kyla, Sean, Tabby, Jenn, Kyle, Jesse, Allison and Ethan were there. it was good. We ended the night with a game of strip poker (which i did NOT participate in... i dont know how to play poker...) and jesse, mike and kyla nearly got naked... Sean was shirtless.... and tabby was pretty much fully dressed... lol
I left around 12 cuz sean had to go home and he was my ride.. but he ended up going back. I talked to mike online and sean on the phone as he walked home. it was fun... Tho the talk varied quite a bit. With sean, it wasn't that serious (*coughtechniquesongettinggirlscough*) and with mike it kinda was. Idk.
Oh on friday i ranked the top 10 huggers of WHS drama. here's the results:
1. Jay
2. Phred
3. Dylan (yes, dylan tabler... i was surprised too.)
4. Balogh
5. Linzi
6. Bry
7. Tabby
8. Dom
9. Jesse
10. Grace
This was fun. i think i'll keep it updated on best huggers. lol
Well, now i have a live journal. Woohoo!